LACK OF DECISION

It’s been a long while since I created this space and could be easy to say I did not have the chance or the time to come here and stay a bit. But, honestly, it wouldn’t be true.

It’s been just a question of decision: what to write, how to write it.

Now it seems (and only seems) I have it clearer (not absolutely clear).

What/where is the other side?

Alright, let me introduce you to a different way to see life. Yeah, maybe not different for you, but… could be.

Let me tell you a story:

You know, habit is the hugest weight we carry in our day by day. While everything goes just the way they have been going till now, you won’t wonder if it is right or not; if you have or do what you wanted or just what you were supposed to do.

But, sometimes, at some stand, and you really don’t know how, you see things have changed. It’s not you’ve changed them although. And you see yourself in the middle of a hurricane of changes, you know where it all begins but you don’t know how this is going to end for you.

And this is exactly what it happened to me last year. 2009 was a changing year. Everything changed in my life, my life changed itself; turning me into another me, a different one, with a different prism to see both myself and my life.

I was very rigid and with strong beliefs in what can be considered I should do in my life, both in personal as working lives. Then I found what I’ve been living was just a reflex in the water of what I wanted my life to be.I have been almost my whole life in love with someone, that I found, I did not know.

But my love was so deeply true, how could I have been so mistaken for so long? Where could I find an explanation to open my eyes one morning and feel, better don’t feel, that love any longer? No explanations, at all.

The only one, it is: things were not changing, it was me who changed.

And then, I realise life is not that important. Don’t want to achieve any goal; don’t want to have more than I have. The only important thing is have fun and make it funnier for everyone around me.I think I found the edge, you know, those edges where you cannot keep on with the same life you’ve been living and have to reboot everything from the start.

2009 was the edge, and was so-o good as I can recall any other year within my life, I mean, my previous no-life. I took risks, make mad things, and took absurd decisions just for fun, just to proof myself I could do it, just to see what it was going to happen as I could not predict it. And I felt so good, and still do.

2010 has been the consolidation year, and I’ve proved I can do even better! Yeah! Although it hasn’t been what I wanted it to be I’ve made some outstanding contributions to my new me, so worthy anyway.

To sum up, life is playing, see everything like a game. You can decide if you take the challenge or keep on with what you have. If you decide to participate you are going to have fun, because life is a game with no rules, and the only rule is to have fun. This means things such:

1. Don’t take anything for granted (that’s the only way not to be deceived). And, of course, if you cannot be deceived you cannot accept that you’ve deceived anyone, so you can decide what to do just for yourself (niiiiiiice).

2. Think outside of the box, yes, it works!

3. Play to win, if you finally don’t, you will keep just the same you were at the beginning.

4. Feel sure of your potential, you can do whatever you want; impossible is nothing.

5. Always be ready.

6. Don’t say “NO” to new things, you never know. You could find exactly what you need or maybe find something you did not know you need.

I will keep on numbering at some point.

And now the Great Challenge is 2011, what am I going to do with 2011?

Suggestions are welcome!